To Home School Or Not?

That is the question we (Joe and myself) find ourselves faced with right now. I have put off writing this post because I was not sure which direction my thoughts were headed. Now here I am writing it, hoping that I will figure out where my thoughts are headed.
I have thoroughly enjoyed teaching Noah at home for K4 but I find myself with conflicting emotions about next year. I wonder how I will be able to fit in being a Kindergarten teacher while adequately parenting my two younger boys. I am a stay at home Mom because that is what I desire to be and that is what works best for our family. I love being here for all of my children's 'firsts', their 'in-betweens', and most definitely their 'lasts'. I fear that I will neglect my younger two by spending so much time teaching Noah or that I will neglect giving Noah the education that he deserves because I am too focused on meeting the needs of Jonah and Micah. Both scenarios are unacceptable. So do I send Noah to school somewhere else?
So there you have it...my confusion. Do any of you have thoughts on this issue? I am at a loss. I know that everyone has to take into account their own situation and do what is best for their family, but right now I really just need some general advice...what worked for you?

Adventures In Nursing

Homeschooling went a little better today...both Micah and Jonah slept the entire time. However, this is what happened midway through our class on short vowel sounds.

Me: Noah, I need you to say the correct short vowel sound for each card I hold up.
Noah: But Momma...
Me: Noah, pay attention.
Noah: But Momma...
Me: (Holding up the letter E) What does this vowel say?
Noah: MOMMA!
Me: Fine Noah, what do you need?
Noah: Your boob is leaking.

So much for any dignity I had.

First Day of School

So today was the day that I had been both anticipating and dreading. Joe and I decided early in the summer that we were going to home school Noah this year instead of placing him in a traditional 4-year old school program. We looked around, found a good curriculum, and dove in head first. I was not sure how this morning would go. I knew that we had made the best decision for us at the time, but I had fears that I would not be able to get him to learn or that I would not have the patience to deal with teaching a 4 year old while tending to a nine month old.
This morning, Noah was so excited about starting school that he was actually shaking! I was shaking too, but more from nerves than from anything else. I was just beside myself last night and this morning thinking that I had made a BIG mistake. I don't know why I was so worried, everything turned out just fine. We breezed through all of the lesson plans for the day in less than two hours. I was very surprised at how much Noah knows already. He did not want to stop when his lessons were over and is already looking forward to tomorrow. Jonah cooperated with us as well. All in all, the day went much better than I had expected. Once again I am feeling that we have definitely made the right decision. I am posting this now because I may have to come back and read it in March when I am teaching Noah while taking care of a one year old and an infant!